Upon the suggestion from a friend (Tony) I decided to go on a sabbatical from men. He didn't think I could do it, but boy did I prove him wrong! I ended up not dating any boys for 90 days. Okay, okay. I did make out with one boy and cuddle with him (clothes on) but I don't really consider that a reason to be disqualified. When I embarked on this sabbatical I really thought that once it was over I would be super excited to get back out there and date. Sadly, I am not.
I'm a little disappointed with the men I've met lately. The ones that I do like don't like me back and vice versa. The one guy that I had a serious crush on has decided to not text or call me anymore *sigh*. What can I do? I let him know I was into him, and maybe that was the kiss of death. Who knows. I just don't understand why dating is so difficult. Everyone says that when you are not looking that's when you will find the person you are meant to be with. Now if I'm not looking...how will he know to find me? That's a question that seriously boggles my mind.
What this has let me to believe is that its time to re-direct my focus onto myself. Work on me. Become the best person I can be. Make the best life for myself and if someone is meant to join me on the journey then great! If I am meant to be alone then I will have to deal with that bridge when it comes to it. I'm not a terrible person, you won't go blind looking at me, I have all my teeth, and I can probably make you laugh. All in all though I'm blessed. I have a great job, wonderful friends, the best parents, and my health. In the grand scheme of things...its really not that bad.
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